The Girl...

[Tiddlyjen]

the girl wonders why everything she does she does wrong,
the girl wonders why everytime she says sorry, it does nothing,
the girl wonders why everytime she tries to make it better, she fails,
the girl wonders why she lives her life at all,
Black nothing is better than what she has.

the girl wonders why she cant speed time 5 years ahead,
the girl wonders why she cant be in her own house instead,
the girl wonders why she cant feel her lovers arms around her,
in her own house, 5 years ahead of now...

the girl wonders if she'll ever make her parents happy,
the girl wonders why what she's already done isn't enough,
the girl wonders; what more can she do?

the girl wonders why her life feels so bleak around the ones that are supposed to be,
the carers, the supporters, her family...

the girl wonders if they hear her sob at night,
still upset over that night's fight,
the girl wonders if they see her pain,
as she tries hard not to complain...

the girl that wonders,
the girl that dreams,
the girl that loves her family still,
despite the pain,

that girl...is me.

 

[Subby]

*Super dooper mega non blooper giant hugs*

 

[thistle]

Awwwwwwwwwwwwwww Jen, that was so sad.

*big huggles*