xoxosweetiexxx
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- Apr 21, 2009
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*sigh* why is it that when one thing goes wrong, everything else around you seems to go wrong as well? There are good days and then there are bad days. I personally can’t stand the bad days. My bad days seem to come with the weather. Right now, the weather is gray, foggy with a bit of drizzle. It’s just so gloomy out that my mood is just blah.
With this weather, I seem to get easily agitated. Everything that anyone does just start to piss me off and I just want to strangle something. Somebody. I start to think, are there really people who are that stupid out there in the world? Honestly? How can one person not have common sense? How can one person ask all these stupid questions? How can one person who is so stupid get to the position they are in?
I don’t know what I want to do with my life right now. All I know is that right now, this instant I am content with how my life is. I have a loving and caring family who is very accepting of my love and caring fiancé. I also have a decent job which pays decently and it pays my bills. I have a ton of student loans that I have to pay back because I dropped out. My life is not at its all time high point, but it’s doing pretty well getting by in the middle range.
Is it bad to dread the hours you’re at work and just wanting to go home? Is it bad that you’re counting the minutes and seconds everyday at work until it’s time to leave? Is it bad that you find no interest in what you wake up every morning for? Does this all mean that you hate your job? Does this all mean you need to find something else to do?
If I was to ever do that, I would have no income. I will then have to rely on my parents again, which I really do not want to. I know I rely on them for living and food and what not, but money spending wise, I rely on myself. Or try to. A part of me wants to work and a part of me wants to try and get an education and maybe make something with myself. But sometimes spending all that money on education doesn’t really get you anywhere.
I get too distracted with the things around me that I can’t seem to focus with school work anyways. I don’t know what to do. Sometimes I just want to just sit and cry and maybe something will come to. But nothing will. Nothing has.
I don’t know what to do…
Christina
xoxo
With this weather, I seem to get easily agitated. Everything that anyone does just start to piss me off and I just want to strangle something. Somebody. I start to think, are there really people who are that stupid out there in the world? Honestly? How can one person not have common sense? How can one person ask all these stupid questions? How can one person who is so stupid get to the position they are in?
I don’t know what I want to do with my life right now. All I know is that right now, this instant I am content with how my life is. I have a loving and caring family who is very accepting of my love and caring fiancé. I also have a decent job which pays decently and it pays my bills. I have a ton of student loans that I have to pay back because I dropped out. My life is not at its all time high point, but it’s doing pretty well getting by in the middle range.
Is it bad to dread the hours you’re at work and just wanting to go home? Is it bad that you’re counting the minutes and seconds everyday at work until it’s time to leave? Is it bad that you find no interest in what you wake up every morning for? Does this all mean that you hate your job? Does this all mean you need to find something else to do?
If I was to ever do that, I would have no income. I will then have to rely on my parents again, which I really do not want to. I know I rely on them for living and food and what not, but money spending wise, I rely on myself. Or try to. A part of me wants to work and a part of me wants to try and get an education and maybe make something with myself. But sometimes spending all that money on education doesn’t really get you anywhere.
I get too distracted with the things around me that I can’t seem to focus with school work anyways. I don’t know what to do. Sometimes I just want to just sit and cry and maybe something will come to. But nothing will. Nothing has.
I don’t know what to do…
Christina
xoxo