gothtini
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I will not deny others have it worse then me, but I have been having a hell of a lot of problems lately. Hard to name just one..so how about I name them in sections?
Worries:
My Dad: My father has Hep C and started a new treatment for it two days before my birthday (July). Luckily he didn't crash as quickly as expected and was okay till about August. Then things started going downhill pretty quickly. He has no energy whatsoever, for example he gets tired walking to the kitchen from his chair which is about 15 feet maybe? Mom and I are extremely worried about him. Seeing as I live at home we often do things as a family, but with his energy we are not able to go out of town with him but I refuse to leave him home alone just incase.
Mom: Her health isn't the best either, the doctor is worried about her heart health and we've been trying to find out if anything is wrong. Her family has very bad history when it comes to the heart, her father died of a heart attack, her oldest brother had 2, her other brother has had 4, and her niece has had one to just name a few.
Myself: I try not to worry about my own health that much, its screwed up and nothing will really change that. Though there are parts of my life that should be better healthwise and I've been trying to find ways to make that happen. I'm not too worried now but I will be in times to come when I'm on my own.
Stress:
Dad: Of course with his health there comes stress, it comes hand in hand with worry. Though add on the fact that he won't tell us if anything is wrong yet he will tell random people on the street if they ask doesn't help matters. Also add in that he can be a stubborn whiney idiot, and you have major stress. It has gotten to the point I don't want to be around him and often hide out in my bedroom because of it. He has severe brain fog because of the medication and he also just doesn't listen half the time, I typically feel ignored when I'm around him and feel I can't yell at him because of it because part of it is from the Hep C and the meds, though not all of it.
Mom: I love her to death but she can get on my nerves so much at times. Especially now, we don't have anyone to turn to about dad so a lot of the time she comes to me with her problems. I will listen to her of course and help her, but it hurts to see her so hurt by his actions and words. Also add in the fact she can be so annoying at times I just want to hide away from her as well.
Random stuff: I cause myself a lot of stress, no doubt about that. I worry about things too much and my limitations drive me crazy. I mean most people should be able to go out in the kitchen in my house without a problem, I have major problems at times though because there is stuff in the way of my wheelchair. Also I'm wanting to open a store, I want to open it now but I don't have the money to so its slowly being pushed back which is starting to drive me crazy. Of course there is also friends getting on my nerves but that isn't too stressful luckily. A lot of stress comes from stuff online, typically in forums from people plain out pissing me off or making me feel like an idiot.
Anyway..there's more random stuff but I think that's the basic idea of it all, I don't really expect anyone to know what to say or to say anything. Just please don't go telling me you have it worse, I don't care if you do, I know others have it worse but just sometimes I want time to feel bad for myself. I rarely do this, compared to other people in wheelchairs I've known, so I think I deserve sometime to feel like this.
Worries:
My Dad: My father has Hep C and started a new treatment for it two days before my birthday (July). Luckily he didn't crash as quickly as expected and was okay till about August. Then things started going downhill pretty quickly. He has no energy whatsoever, for example he gets tired walking to the kitchen from his chair which is about 15 feet maybe? Mom and I are extremely worried about him. Seeing as I live at home we often do things as a family, but with his energy we are not able to go out of town with him but I refuse to leave him home alone just incase.
Mom: Her health isn't the best either, the doctor is worried about her heart health and we've been trying to find out if anything is wrong. Her family has very bad history when it comes to the heart, her father died of a heart attack, her oldest brother had 2, her other brother has had 4, and her niece has had one to just name a few.
Myself: I try not to worry about my own health that much, its screwed up and nothing will really change that. Though there are parts of my life that should be better healthwise and I've been trying to find ways to make that happen. I'm not too worried now but I will be in times to come when I'm on my own.
Stress:
Dad: Of course with his health there comes stress, it comes hand in hand with worry. Though add on the fact that he won't tell us if anything is wrong yet he will tell random people on the street if they ask doesn't help matters. Also add in that he can be a stubborn whiney idiot, and you have major stress. It has gotten to the point I don't want to be around him and often hide out in my bedroom because of it. He has severe brain fog because of the medication and he also just doesn't listen half the time, I typically feel ignored when I'm around him and feel I can't yell at him because of it because part of it is from the Hep C and the meds, though not all of it.
Mom: I love her to death but she can get on my nerves so much at times. Especially now, we don't have anyone to turn to about dad so a lot of the time she comes to me with her problems. I will listen to her of course and help her, but it hurts to see her so hurt by his actions and words. Also add in the fact she can be so annoying at times I just want to hide away from her as well.
Random stuff: I cause myself a lot of stress, no doubt about that. I worry about things too much and my limitations drive me crazy. I mean most people should be able to go out in the kitchen in my house without a problem, I have major problems at times though because there is stuff in the way of my wheelchair. Also I'm wanting to open a store, I want to open it now but I don't have the money to so its slowly being pushed back which is starting to drive me crazy. Of course there is also friends getting on my nerves but that isn't too stressful luckily. A lot of stress comes from stuff online, typically in forums from people plain out pissing me off or making me feel like an idiot.
Anyway..there's more random stuff but I think that's the basic idea of it all, I don't really expect anyone to know what to say or to say anything. Just please don't go telling me you have it worse, I don't care if you do, I know others have it worse but just sometimes I want time to feel bad for myself. I rarely do this, compared to other people in wheelchairs I've known, so I think I deserve sometime to feel like this.
